It’s ok to be angry with Jesus

Today I learned yet a new lesson and a new level in my faith. It’s ok to be angry with Jesus.

There are a gazillion verses in the bible to help us through our anger. God knows it will be there. I think the most important thing we can do when we are angry with God… is tell Him.

The book of Habakkuk is all about this. God does not mind when we are angry, it’s what we do with it. Will that anger pull us away or draw us closer to him. It’s not a lot, but it’s one of the most important lessons we can learn.

Mastering it… well that’s another challenge entirely.

Failure

So my good friend Aimee has been telling me that I need to update this blog. Here goes...

How can you follow a God that you can't see? I don't know, but somehow I'm pulling along.
I believe there is a God, I believe there are people that can see God moving. I believe this is a common and everyday occurrence for some people. I used to be one of those people.
I don't know where it went, or how it went. I can't see God where I need to. He's there and he's moving, I just can't see it.
I find God in the small things, the beauty of the world, my husband, my son... but what about the big things. The ones that make the biggest ripple in who you become.
I'm so wrapped up in the unfairness of it all, that I am blind to what He's doing.
I know in my heart God answers and God moves and it's not always the way that you want it to be. But sometimes... sometimes you need it to be what you want.
It is our brokenness that allows us to see God. It is our need. You must hit the bottom before you can look up, or so I've heard.

How much further must I be broken to see Him? Why does my stubborn heart and concealed mind hold me back?
I have seen miracles with my own eyes... why is that not enough anymore?

My Verse

"Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20 Niv

As I’m sure you have noticed I haven’t been updating lately. I have just been having so much trouble. This morning though, God showed me a new lesson. It’s funny that you can look at the same verse over and over, and then one day…you learn something new about it.

Today God showed me something completely eye opening.

This was always my favorite verse because to me it meant that God would do great things with only a small amount of faith. This has always shown me the power that God has. He is magnificent and make something out of nothing. He is a God of anything!

Today though, I learned about God’s compassion for us. This verse reminds me that sometimes a miniscule amount of faith is all we have to give. God knows this about us. He knows that we will need this verse at times in our lives.

So even though my faith is in a waning stage, God has not forsaken me. God is still there for me. So today, yes I only have a tiny amount of faith. God will honor my tiny faith and grow it.

Be strong, be courageous and l have faith.